After some delaying (for no real good reason LOL) we decided this month to give it a try! I'm not temping, but I did do some OPK's and got a couple positives. Looks like our "going with the flow" sex schedule seem to hit some key days....so that puts me back in the two week wait (TWW). I'm not obsessing like last time, probably due to be busy with london. :) But now that I'm actually in the TWW it got me thinking... WOW can I handle two. I mean I know I can and I know I will love them both. That first few months I had with london was just so relaxed and easy....I'm scared the next child will not be such an easy baby. And if they aren't...well then I'm sleep deprived with a baby AND a toddler.
I have also been thinking alot about what, if anything, I would do different with the next child that I did with london. I really can't think of anything.... I guess that makes me feel pretty calm like I really am doing the "right" things with london.
The main thing I have been thinking about is breastfeeding. London is still BFing on demand. Its working for us so I see no reason to change that. However i'm not sure I can see myself nursing two at the same time. But then I didn't see me nursing a 15 month old either. I guess in my brain london will wean himself while I'm pregnant. I hear it happens almost every time because the milk drys up or the toddler no longer likes the flavor. Its sad to think of it ending, but its even more interesting to finally realize I will miss it. If you asked me a few weeks ago I would have said its for food and really thats it. But i'm now realizing there is more to it for us (or at least me). With realizing that I feel a little sad that I'm kind of taking it away from him by getting (if it happens) pregnant.