I had my follow up doctor's appointment today......the official diagnosis........"These things just happen".

The doctor started to say to wait 1-3 months before trying again. I asked him why should we wait. He told me so the next "doctor" can date my pregnancy. I even asked if there was ANOTHER reason. I at least figured he would say "give your body time to heal" or "your uterian lining needs time to rebuild". But what else did he say... NOPE, NADA, NOTHING.

Well I chart and I KNOW when my last 100% NOT pregnant last day was, and since we haven't even had sex I'm pretty confident I'm not right now. Plus we have ultrasound dating for the thousands people who have no idea what there due date would be. So there is not a medical reason to wait for anything...that's just crap.

After coming home Troy and I were talking and he has decided that he needs to wait. He is not sure how long, but he needs a break. Well my husband means the world to me, so if he is not ready and needs time to heal, I can respect that. I can't push, nor would I want to, my craptastic coping skills on him. So if this is what he needs, then thats what we will do.

How do I feel about waiting? Well its no shock to anyone that I want to get right back up on that horse (so would troy be the horse then hahaha). But I love my husband dearly and am will to do whatever I can to support him, it will not kill me to wait a little longer. My marriage means more to me then TTC does.


*wondering if Troy reads this blog that often* hehehe